I am 16 years old. My parents divorced like 4 month ago.
Sometimes I don't even understand why they separated? Is it because of misunderstanding? Lack of love ? Lack of attention?
Whenever I ask them why both of them separated, they always answer that it is their fate that they have become like this. After my parents divorced , my relationship with my father became far apart. We are like strangers.
I don't even know what I did to him until he ignore me 24/7. Day after day I keep thinking that he hates me. So eventually, I started to feel that I hate him too. But , sometimes , I don't even know why I cry when I look at him from afar.
I feel like nobody is on my side. Nobody hears me crying at night. Nobody want to hear my thoughts. So, because of that, almost everynight, I locked my door, leaned on the wall and let out my depression, tears, anger all alone.
Well, sometimes I have some thought to committ suicide, self harming but luckily, it never happened. I just have no courage to do that.
You could say that im old enough, mature enough to understand about this divorced thing. But i also have feelings and a hart and I also need parents like others.