An Almost Teenager

by Anonymous
(United States )

I don't remember when my parents divorced exactly. I think I was about 5. I really don't know. Now I'm almost 13. And I think about it a lot. I live with my mom and two siblings. I also have step siblings. And my step dad. The divorce is really hitting me hard now as I realize things.

Oh and I haven't seen my dad in about 5 years. No communication at all. I keep wondering if he ever thinks about me as much as I think of him. Or if he loves me. If I even matter to him at all.

It kills me when I see little girls with their dads all happy. It just reminds me that I'll never have that chance. Ever it seems like. I also wonder. Will I ever see my dad again. It just hurts. And when I look at photo albums from years ago there is not 1 single picture of my dad. I don't even remember what he looks like.

That kills me. When I watch movies and people get married you see the bride walk down the isle with her dad. Another thing I doubt I'll ever be able to do. Why me.

Every year on my birthday I wonder if he even remembers that it's my birthday. I think about him every day. What does he do all day. I just... Kills me. Writing this just makes me cry. My heart just... Breaks.

I really wish I could talk to someone in the same exact place as I am. I wish I knew someone that would know exactly how I feel. Just really understand.

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Jan 28, 2015
 Dad trouble
by: Anonymous

I still have my dad around but sometimes I wish I didn't. We've been getting into fights recently, and I haven't seen him in two weeks.

I'm suppose to go over to his house this weekend, but I'm not going to. I need some time to process things, and figure out the next step in our relationship. I recently found out that my brother doesn't want to go over their either, and

I think that's a good thing. I don't remember a lot of the things that happened between my dad and me, but I know he's hurt my brother a lot. So I think some time away from him will help you heal.

I've never really been without my dad. But maybe you shouldn't hate it so much. You never know what kind of man he could be.
Dec 11, 2012
 I have never saw my dad
by: cari

well I never ever saw my dad I'm 13 and he was in prison for the first 8yrs of my life i don't even know him at least the young you did see your dad i miss my dad as much as you
Aug 12, 2012
 If you never see your father and miss him, please comment
by: Emmily Napier

Dear,

Thank you very much for sharing your story.

I can imagine that it is very hard for you, but I do not have the same experience.

There are many more children like you out there. Children that do not see their biological father for some reason. Maybe because of a divorce, or because he died.

How do you know that when you see happy children with a man, that the man is their biological father? Could it be their step father or an oncle or just a good and trusted friend instead?

It might help you to think about all the people that do love and care about you. Next, take action. Contact your dad, maybe through his parents. Talk about it with your mother, your grandmother or grandfather or to another person you trust. Ask her or him to help you.

I'll ask children with the same experience to comment:

TO ALL CHILDREN OF DIVORCE THAT DO NOT SEE THEIR FATHER AND MISS HIM:

Please share you story by commenting on this post.

Thank you.

Emmily Napier

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