Miserable Anxiety Filled Life

by Alex Karras
(Pittsburgh )

I am a child of divorce, so here is my story.
It all started one day, May 26, 2016, to be exact.

My mom was seeing another man, and my dad found out. My mom never came home that day,
she instead left her children and flew to Florida where her parents lived. Along with the idiot guy she was seeing. This went on for months.

I struggled in school, started missing a LOT, and I was a mess. I felt so trapped and unable to do anything, I felt numb. She suddenly shows up one day, June 10. My last day of school. She picked me up and we went home. She started drinking intensely, beer after beer.

I couldn't stand it. My mother I used to know, is gone. She nor our family will ever be the same again. Things were kind of normal for a while, until they got into a fight on the Fourth of July.

My dad tried to kill himself. My mother had him hospitalized for 5 days, which was the perfect time for her to run away...

This time, she took my brother and sister. I chose to stay, I couldn't leave. I didn't know what to do, my body was in complete shock. I kissed them goodbye and layed on the bathroom floor, crying my eyes out. I was alone. with nobody. My dad was in the hospital, my mother went sayonara.

A 14 year old girl should never be alone. I was alone for 5 days, fending for myself, In a big empty house.

I felt like I was nothing. I felt like I should have gone to Florida. My summer was complete shit. We did nothing because my dad was too worried about what my mom was doing, so we stayed home from our annual Myrtle Beach family vacation.

I was so angry and wanting to go away, to get away from my life just for a week, but NO my dad wants us to forever feel sad like this was our fault.

We are the best kids, I may be biased.

They owe it to us to let us get away from our pathetic lives. My life was and still is a complete hell. I eat anxiety pills. My eczema is all over my body due to stress. My life has changed for the worse. I am mentally and physically damaged due to two adults who can't act normal and want to run away from their kids.

I can't wait to move away when I turn 18.

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Jul 27, 2017
Thanks for sharing; keep a positive mindset
by: Emmily

Dear Alex,

Thank you for sharing your story. I am sure it will help other visitors like you. They will understand that they are not alone in a sad situation like you.

It is very sad for you that your parents make your life miserable for an important part. All I can say is try to be positive, use your energy on positive things, try to do things you like.

The older you get, the more you will be able to go your own way, to take your own decisions and to lead your own life. Don't forget to do the best you can at school, as you will benefit from it during the rest of your long life that you have still in front of you.

Best regards, Emmily

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