Child Divorce Story Kelly

by Kelly Taresh
(California, USA)

I am now 13 and 11 years have passed since my parents divorced.

At firsts I didn't know what was going on, but as I grew up, I noticed nothing was wrong. I never really had a father figure in my life and I hated it when people talked about their dad. I don't feel joy and happiness.

I normally feel nothing, but sometimes sadness and anger. I am an introvert, like my dad who lives in another state and I love with my extroverted mom and sister.

I barely ever see my dad. Only about 2 or 3 times a year. My mom and sister don't understand me and it frustrates me. They don't understand I feel broken, lost, and alone. I spend a lot of my time alone in my room and on the Internet.

When I was around 7, my mom was married to my step dad. He yelled at us and blamed us for everything so they also divorced.

I am sick and tired of putting on a mask, hiding my pain behind a fake smile. I feel like no one can ever understand me. How can they if I don't understand myself?

I have been diagnosed with depression. I have never self harmed or anything like that, but sometimes I think about it. I just wish I had someone that would understand me and be by my side.

I have been going to counseling for a while and it doesn't help. I cry almost everyday in the darkness of my room, too shy to talk to anyone. I need someone to help me through this hell of a life I don't want to be living.

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Apr 16, 2015
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by: Reinier

Dear Kelly,

Thank you for telling us your story. I understand what you're writing and I wish things will change for you for the better soon.

Although you have been diagnosed with depression and the counseling did not help, you keep on trying to improve your life as you prove by posting your story here and to ask for help. You do not sit back and wait but you take initiative. You take your well-being and your future into your own hands. That's very positive.

Other posts from other young visitors on our web site learn that there are other children in a similar situation. You could get in touch with them by placing a comment on their post.

As I live in Europe, I cannot help you directly myself. I do not qualify, the physical distance is too big and we are both in a very different time zone, about 12 hours difference. That is not going to work.

The best way to go forward is to go to your general practitioner. Let her or him read the story you posted here. Your general practitioner knows best who you can help and she or he can introduce you to that person.

Just another thought: if you have a good relationship with your grand parents, they might be able to help you.

Kelly, you're a brave girl and 'just' 13. Life has so many wonderful surprises as you will experience in your long life to come. Focus on the things that make you happy (many times those are small things, like a little bird that sits just outside your windows for a few seconds) and spend your time with the persons you like. See the half-full glass instead of the half-empty one.

I wish you all the best.

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